Tuesday, August 3, 2010

He's there, right?

He's there, right, when I feel like I cannot breathe and the wind is being knocked out of me. He's there, right, when I can't get my head above this water and I feel like I'm drowning. He's there, right, when all I see is 1000 steps in front of me and not just one single step. He's there, right, when I want to drown every single emotion in the tallest, frostiest and most delicious mocha frappe'. He's there, right? Really? For sure? But I can't see him, and most times I cannot feel him and my flesh will wonder if he even knows I'm alive and struggling right here, right now. In this very place where so many tears fall and I try to hide every emotion and feeling that I'm feeling. For sure, right? Definitely? You are here? Jesus, please, don't go.


  1. Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. -Deuteronomy 31:6

  2. Hold on dear Grace,
    O LORD, You have searched me and You know me.
    You know when I sit and when I rise; You perceive my thoughts from afar.
    You discern my going out and my lying down; You are familiar with all my ways.
    Before a word is on my tongue You know completely, o LORD.

    You hem me in - behind and before; You have laid Your hand upon me.
    Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain.
    Where can I go from Your Spirit? Where can I flee from Your presence?
    If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths (in hell), You are there.
    If i rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea,
    even there Your hand will guide me, Your right hand will hold me fast.

    If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide m and the light become night around me,"
    even the darkness will not be dark to You; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to You.

    For You created my inmost being; You knit me together in my mother's womb.
    I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
    My frame was not hidden from You when I was made in the secret place. When I was women together in the depths of the earth,
    Your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for were written in Your book before one of them came to be.
    How precious to me are Your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them!
    Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand. When I awake, I am still with You.

    If only You would slay the wicked, O God! Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!
    They speak of You with evil intent; Your adversaries misuse Your name.
    Do I not hate those who hat You, O LORD, and abhor those who rise up against You?
    I have nothing but hatred for them; I count them my enemies.

    Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.
    See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

    *~Psalm 139~*

    Hold on dear one... He is with you.
    Hugs & Prayers, HL