Tuesday, January 12, 2010


I started Beth Moore's Esther Bible Study.

I'm totally bored with Day one. It is all like 483 b.c. and this king and Cyrus and Nebecasomething or other. I know Beth's studies are totally awesome and I will get so much out of it, but right now, you aren't grabbing me girl!

Busy week. Greg is driving me alittle crazy with his EPIC birthday party he wants to have. I get that he's 40 and all, but geez, mama doesn't work, I don't bring home any bacon, how am I to pull this off?

I haven't walked since Kelly and I went last week. I haven't thought about stepping foot into the Y either. It bums me out. Sometimes I wish my weight bothered me more so maybe I would do something about it. I struggle inside, I know it. But I am also the master manipulator and I hate to dig deep so the remote thought of any emotion or feeling coming to the surface I'm like, "oh, wait, what's that, and I get all A.D.D. and want to change the subject, or rather feeling". I always like to blame "the enemy", but really it's a battle with the flesh each and every day.

One of my favorite mommy blogs I recently started visiting here put this incredible picture of a women at Jesus' feet. Maybe I should know who? Mary, Martha, Esther? The prostitute? I don't know. But the picture was incredible and I literally could feel a twinge inside me, but oh no, God forbid, I feel deeply and some emotion. Someone left a comment with this verse and I love it....

2 Corinthians 4:16-18 says,
"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."


  1. Jen, just wanted to thank you so much for sharing your heart today on my blog and on yours. The woman in the picture; read Mark 5:25. The story will grip you. Imagine being so desperate for healing that you know just touching, even just brushing against the hem of Jesus' garment would heal you. Please tell me what you think of the story.

    I so hear your heart. What is holding us back from being who we want to be, and being who God created us to be? We may not know the answer, but the best thing to do is keep running towards the one who has the answer.

    And, you are so sweet to share my blog, thank you. I just pray it will encourage others. I love that picture, too.

    Praying for you my friend.

  2. Hey Jen,

    The B's are kind of close to the ceiling, but below the clock. I think I need to play around with them a little. Not loving where they're at. Hope you are doing well.

    Did you read Mark 5:25 yet?

  3. I tried Beth Moore's Esther study this last fall, but after the first week the kids got sick and passed it around (like kids tend to do!) so I missed the next six weeks and decided to quit. I want to so that one, I hope it is great for you!

    I just started Breaking Free by Beth. I hope it is as wonderful as everything else she does!

    Great verse, a good daily reminder.

    God bless,

  4. Hey there,

    Thanks for your care about my son. Fortunately the teacher talked to my son and the other little boy and came up with a plan. I'm praying it works.

    It is so hard to watch your kids get hurt. Unfortunately, that's life. :(

    Hope you are well,


  5. Your comment yesterday was so touching. I will keep talking about this. Granted, I'm no expert and don't have all the answers, but I have some personal experiences and I have God, so maybe I can be effective. We'll see.

    I'll keep writing, you keep visiting :)