Lately I've been thinking about cutting out the sugar & flour. It seems that most blogs I read or people I talk to, they cut out the white food, especially refined sugar and flour. I know all too well about that because I've spent years in OA. OA is overeaters anonymous. No, it's not a bunch of fat people there's also bulimics and anorexics too. Anyone dealing with food issues. And I always feel like I have to justify the whole "overeaters" thing with "hey, there's also these folks too".
My SIL has been reminding me how successful I have been in the past on this program and I too cannot deny it. I've recently looked up the website and searched for local meetings. I've even been thinking about a good friend that lives right down the street from me that I haven't seen in years that was very active in OA.
Guess who I ran into today?
Yes. That friend. Her name is Betsy and I "coincidentally" ran into her today. Is God's timing so perfect or what? Yes!
I'm meeting her on Monday at 7pm.
God is Good...all the time!
Friday, July 30, 2010
I am worth it!! (I am right?)
Why the hesitation I wonder?
I have to admit something and I need to write about it here. I'm not sure who reads my blog, if anyone, maybe a few. Regardless, this is my place and I leave it open for anyone to peak at. Here goes...
On Wednesday about 4pm I got dressed in some black shorts and black shirt (shocker I know) and I just now took a shower and changed. I went out in that outfit on Wednesday, slept in it, woke up, went here and there in it, slept in it again and today, finally at 12:30 in the afternoon I take a shower and change. Guess what I'm wearing...black shorts and a black shirt.
Each time I went out of the house the past few days I thought to myself "jen, how can you do this? dont you love yourself? aren't you important?". I can't get this out of my head. If I cared about me, I would care about how I look; therefore, I wouldn't go out of the house looking the way I do. People say I don't need makeup ever and I'm pretty this and that, and at times I can find confidence in that, BUT Oh my word! I stayed in the same clothes for days!!!! I think this was an all time low and I totally see it.
After I got out of the shower today I did my hair, my makeup and I plan to put on cute shoes.
Shocker, I know!
I have to admit something and I need to write about it here. I'm not sure who reads my blog, if anyone, maybe a few. Regardless, this is my place and I leave it open for anyone to peak at. Here goes...
On Wednesday about 4pm I got dressed in some black shorts and black shirt (shocker I know) and I just now took a shower and changed. I went out in that outfit on Wednesday, slept in it, woke up, went here and there in it, slept in it again and today, finally at 12:30 in the afternoon I take a shower and change. Guess what I'm wearing...black shorts and a black shirt.
Each time I went out of the house the past few days I thought to myself "jen, how can you do this? dont you love yourself? aren't you important?". I can't get this out of my head. If I cared about me, I would care about how I look; therefore, I wouldn't go out of the house looking the way I do. People say I don't need makeup ever and I'm pretty this and that, and at times I can find confidence in that, BUT Oh my word! I stayed in the same clothes for days!!!! I think this was an all time low and I totally see it.
After I got out of the shower today I did my hair, my makeup and I plan to put on cute shoes.
Shocker, I know!
Day 3 Weekend
Going out of town again this weekend. The baby will be staying home with Greg. I'm looking forward to some time with Bella & Gavin.
I'm not going to be able to write on my computer, so I hope I will be consistent and take my journal and at least write down my food while we're gone.
I did not plan my food for today.
It's 10am and I haven't had breakfast yet.
I have not incorporated any exercise. I'm hoping that will come next week. Ha!!
Day 3 of my memory verse; "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well."
First Place talks about how we need to focus on our spiritual priorities, but we also need to focus on our physical needs and the needs of others. The challenge we face is in our attempt to live responsibly, we cannot allow the daily pressures to consume all of our needs and energy. When I put my spiritual needs first, then God gives me the emotional energy I need to deal with the demanding world I live in.
Today I reflect on my time and my energy. How much time am I placing on my priorities versus this darn computer!!
Today, in all things, I must give God all the Glory. In everything I do, I want to reflect God and his goodness. Living the life I was living consumed in sin is not glorifying my God who is so incredibly good. In my lack of eating responsibly or not doing exercise and taking care of my physical body - how is that glorifying God and pleasing to Him? It's NOT. Again, it shows my complete disobedience.
Lord, help me to balance my time and energy. Help me to see my priorities being you first, then others, my family and me. In all things I do I want you to have all the Glory. Guide me to do you will.
I'm not going to be able to write on my computer, so I hope I will be consistent and take my journal and at least write down my food while we're gone.
I did not plan my food for today.
It's 10am and I haven't had breakfast yet.
I have not incorporated any exercise. I'm hoping that will come next week. Ha!!
Day 3 of my memory verse; "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well."
First Place talks about how we need to focus on our spiritual priorities, but we also need to focus on our physical needs and the needs of others. The challenge we face is in our attempt to live responsibly, we cannot allow the daily pressures to consume all of our needs and energy. When I put my spiritual needs first, then God gives me the emotional energy I need to deal with the demanding world I live in.
Today I reflect on my time and my energy. How much time am I placing on my priorities versus this darn computer!!
Today, in all things, I must give God all the Glory. In everything I do, I want to reflect God and his goodness. Living the life I was living consumed in sin is not glorifying my God who is so incredibly good. In my lack of eating responsibly or not doing exercise and taking care of my physical body - how is that glorifying God and pleasing to Him? It's NOT. Again, it shows my complete disobedience.
Lord, help me to balance my time and energy. Help me to see my priorities being you first, then others, my family and me. In all things I do I want you to have all the Glory. Guide me to do you will.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Day 2... I don't have to worry
I didn't plan for today. That's ok though. The fact that I wrote down my food yesterday is huge. Not sure what I'll eat today but I know I will think about my choices and read labels. Oh another thing I did differently yesterday was when I did eat, I ate at the table, no t.v., and I ate slowly and consciously.
My memory verse for this week is Matthew 6:33. "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well".
This was one of the first verses I learned when I first got saved three years ago. I don't think I was even saved yet. My husband and I used to drive fancy cars. Like a mercedes C230 and a hummer H3. Ridiculous to even think about now. But anyways, we struggled our first year saved financially. Big time. All of a sudden it was as if God said "I'll show you what's really important" and he took away all of the "stuff". Our car payment on the mercedes was 633. Our dear friend Tom pointed that out to my husband and we couldn't believe it. It was our first message from God and my belief was starting to build. "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well".
As I reflect on this verse today I know that there isn't anything I have to worry about. God will supply all of my needs. He has promised us this. But in spite of it, I can still worry. God knows what we need even before we ask. I used to worry a lot and it's taken me a few years to give it all to God. I have good days and bad days.
What are some of the things I worry about? My children's safety, my husbands health, my mothers health. These things are completely out of my control and must be given to God each day.
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
-Reinhold Niebuhr
My memory verse for this week is Matthew 6:33. "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well".
This was one of the first verses I learned when I first got saved three years ago. I don't think I was even saved yet. My husband and I used to drive fancy cars. Like a mercedes C230 and a hummer H3. Ridiculous to even think about now. But anyways, we struggled our first year saved financially. Big time. All of a sudden it was as if God said "I'll show you what's really important" and he took away all of the "stuff". Our car payment on the mercedes was 633. Our dear friend Tom pointed that out to my husband and we couldn't believe it. It was our first message from God and my belief was starting to build. "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well".
As I reflect on this verse today I know that there isn't anything I have to worry about. God will supply all of my needs. He has promised us this. But in spite of it, I can still worry. God knows what we need even before we ask. I used to worry a lot and it's taken me a few years to give it all to God. I have good days and bad days.
What are some of the things I worry about? My children's safety, my husbands health, my mothers health. These things are completely out of my control and must be given to God each day.
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
-Reinhold Niebuhr
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Day 1 Review
I don't like not knowing how many calories are in certain foods I'm eating. Gosh, and it's only day 1. Maybe it's a good sign.
Some small victories today. Gavin wanted a sundae from Mcdonalds and I immediately said "yes, let's go". I totally planned to have one too. While driving I recited my memory verse over and over and sure enough, I did not have any temptation to have one. I did get one of their new fruit smoothies and I know there's a ton of sugar in those too, but the calories seemed ok. Not something I would have all the time. Just happy I got through it without getting what I would normally get in that darn drive thru.
The only time I felt the urge to eat was when Greg and I got "into it" a bit via email. It didn't last long. And all is well.
My mom gave me her Avenue card tonight and wanted me to get something new to where to a party we are going to this weekend. I had a great time in there all by myself and I wasn't bummed out at all. My size today is a 26. But today is the first day of my new lifestyle. This will take time. I'm in no hurry.
I took the time in the grocery store tonight and read labels.
Small victories.
Some small victories today. Gavin wanted a sundae from Mcdonalds and I immediately said "yes, let's go". I totally planned to have one too. While driving I recited my memory verse over and over and sure enough, I did not have any temptation to have one. I did get one of their new fruit smoothies and I know there's a ton of sugar in those too, but the calories seemed ok. Not something I would have all the time. Just happy I got through it without getting what I would normally get in that darn drive thru.
The only time I felt the urge to eat was when Greg and I got "into it" a bit via email. It didn't last long. And all is well.
My mom gave me her Avenue card tonight and wanted me to get something new to where to a party we are going to this weekend. I had a great time in there all by myself and I wasn't bummed out at all. My size today is a 26. But today is the first day of my new lifestyle. This will take time. I'm in no hurry.
I took the time in the grocery store tonight and read labels.
Small victories.
Day 1 to the rest of my life
I don't have a plan. A Food plan that is and I probably should figure that out the night before. It's 9:32am and so far today I've had 1 cup of coffee, splenda and 1 T of vanilla creamer. Not sure what I'll eat today. Not so hip already on writing down my food. What's that saying..."fail to plan is a plan to fail". Yeah, that's me.
On to the verse of the week. Matthew 6:33, "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well".
Some of the things I have highlighted in my First Place book about this verse:
- God wants First Place in our lives.
- Loving God halfheartedly is not enough.
- Commitment to Him my life will be forever changed.
- If Christ is not First Place in my thoughts, plans and actions, then what is?
In 2009 I had written, Facebook Parentguide and Food.
Today I write Computer, GoodLiving, talking on the phone and Facebook. Well, food has to go in there too. So all these things are first in my life and not God. No wonder I have grown to an all time high of !@#$%. Let's just say I'm pushing a size 26/28. Ugh...
Jesus doesn't tell us that he will meet some of our needs, but he will meet ALL of our needs. Do I believe this to be true? YES. YES. I believe Lord.
Saying that Christ is First Place in my life and actually living with Christ in First Place are two different things.
Lord, I trust you. I believe you. God, help me to remember this. And please help me to put YOU first this week. Thank you for your promise to meet all my needs this week. Amen!
On to the verse of the week. Matthew 6:33, "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well".
Some of the things I have highlighted in my First Place book about this verse:
- God wants First Place in our lives.
- Loving God halfheartedly is not enough.
- Commitment to Him my life will be forever changed.
- If Christ is not First Place in my thoughts, plans and actions, then what is?
In 2009 I had written, Facebook Parentguide and Food.
Today I write Computer, GoodLiving, talking on the phone and Facebook. Well, food has to go in there too. So all these things are first in my life and not God. No wonder I have grown to an all time high of !@#$%. Let's just say I'm pushing a size 26/28. Ugh...
Jesus doesn't tell us that he will meet some of our needs, but he will meet ALL of our needs. Do I believe this to be true? YES. YES. I believe Lord.
Saying that Christ is First Place in my life and actually living with Christ in First Place are two different things.
Lord, I trust you. I believe you. God, help me to remember this. And please help me to put YOU first this week. Thank you for your promise to meet all my needs this week. Amen!
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Here's what I'm thinking...
Here's what I'm considering. Or rather praying about. Or am I just giving myself room to not commit or am I already planning my escape?
Bottom line - Calories in, calories out.
Bottom line - Exercise
Bottom line - I must dig deep and clean out the coop.
Bottom line - Memorize scripture.
The plan - write down my food. Take one topic each week and write about it. For example, my childhood, my dad, Bella, my marriage, my mother and so on. Memorize one scripture each week relating to temptation and putting Christ first. And get moving!!
So, when does this start? Oh, aren't Mondays good days for that? Well, that is doing what I always do and delaying so maybe I'll do things different this time. I'll start tomorrow. Tomorrow is Wednesday July 28th and it's the first day to the rest of my life.
Oh no!!!!!!!!!!!
Bottom line - Calories in, calories out.
Bottom line - Exercise
Bottom line - I must dig deep and clean out the coop.
Bottom line - Memorize scripture.
The plan - write down my food. Take one topic each week and write about it. For example, my childhood, my dad, Bella, my marriage, my mother and so on. Memorize one scripture each week relating to temptation and putting Christ first. And get moving!!
So, when does this start? Oh, aren't Mondays good days for that? Well, that is doing what I always do and delaying so maybe I'll do things different this time. I'll start tomorrow. Tomorrow is Wednesday July 28th and it's the first day to the rest of my life.
Oh no!!!!!!!!!!!
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