Happy Birthday Jackson!

Wow, where does the time go?

This year has flown by with Jackson. Happy Birthday baby boy. You have brought such Joy to our family. You are truly a Blessing from our Lord. Thank you God for giving us Jackson.

Stuffed

I am stuffed.

Stuffed with brownies and cookies and crap!

I hate feeling this way. What is it going to take? There is only one way. It's time to release the strongholds on my life. I want to feel free. Not just feel free, but to be free. What is that like?

"Christ has set us free to live a free life. So take your stand! Never again let anyone put a harness of slavery on you. Galatians 5:1"

But what does that mean to me? Can I even dig deep enough to understand the meaning of this verse?

I realize that I can do all things. I am more than a conqueror. I know that when I am free I will be able to do incredible things for our Lord.

God, please use me. What is it that I need to do? I know that this body does not show your work and your Glory. I believe that my life, in you, is for a greater purpose. Show me the way Father.

Amen!

Resolutions or Goals?

Resolution: A resolve or determination.

Goals: The result or achievement towards.

I think I like the word "Goals" better. I'm really not one to make New Years resolutions. I feel as if it is setting myself up to fail. I'm really used to not completing a task; although, I would like to think I have gotten better about this, I don't necessarily know how true it is.

I have to admit with the New Year upon us I have thought alot about Goals. Short term goals and the long term ones. I started out with the short term. i.e. taking the bins out of Jacksons room. OK, done. I did it. One down. Now what? Here is what I hope to accomplish this month.

• Start and continue with my Passages bible study.
• Start and continue with Esther bible study at Lakeview.
• Keep up with this blog.
• Organize the kids rooms. Although, this may be considered "long term".
• Meal plan! Make healthy meal choices.
• Get to the Y and exercise, not just talk to everyone.

Let's see where we are at on February 1st.

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" Philippians 4:13

Mr. Sweetie

Ecclesiastes 3 Time for Everything

1 There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven: 2 a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, 3 a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, 4 a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, 5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain, 6 a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, 7 a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, 8 a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace.

This beautiful verse comes to mind on this last day of 2009. I can't say that this was a terrible year because this year started with the birth of our son, Jackson. Jackson has made me a better mother, wife and friend. Jackson is truly a blessing from above. Today on the last day of 2009 my family and I are faced with a decision about our kitty, Mr. Sweetie. Mr. Sweetie came to us in March of this year. He came to us from a tough background and we welcomed him into our home. He has been wonderful with Jackson and the kids. Most importantly he made his way into Greg's heart. Greg and Mr. Sweetie have been the best of friends. Today, Mr. Sweetie is very sick and the cost to care for him may run between $3,000-$5,000. This is an expense we cannot afford. My heart breaks to have to make a difficult decision.

Happy Birthday Gavin

Today I won a contest. The question was, "what is something that you wish you were told before you were a mom". My answer was, "I wish someone told me that there would be some days that you wish you weren't a mom". Well, they asked us to be completely honest. And I answered the question honestly. And it got the family 4 tickets to MOSI Imax. I'm sure some mom's would shreik with utter shock & awe at an answer like that. To me, it was the truth for many many years. Today I have to say, that I am so excited and happy to be a mom. I know God had a plan all along like he always does and I had to go through the valley of some very dark and lonely mommy days. Now today I am the happiest Mommy in the world to my 3 kids. And we will never forget our Sammy who is our Angel baby in Heaven.

Today, the 30th, is Gavin's 6th birthday! Happy Birthday baby boy. I am so proud to be your mommy. I cannot wait to see what the day will bring to you and to us as a family. Daddy has surprised us all with taking the day off and we plan to have a blast!

Thank you Lord for my family and for today. Today, I am so happy to be a Mommy.

Spongebob

Is it bad that Jackson stops dead in his tracks if he hears Spongebob on the t.v? The minute the intro song starts he is all about getting to the t.v. as fast as possible to be as close to the t.v. before the song is over. It is quite funny actually. I personally find Spongebob to be hilarious; and I find Mr. Crabs to be a lesson to my children. It gives me the opportunity to teach about greed and unhappiness. Am I stretching out on a limb here to justify my kids watching Spongebob? He's really like one of the family. He has been on our t.v. since Bella was just a few months old. I mean, she knew the song too? "who lives in a pineapple under the sea". It's just so catchy.

Bella Grace is sick!

Bella and I just got back from After Hours Pediatrics and our little girl DOES have an ear infection. Not that I didn't believe her the past three days BUT, I am an experienced Mommy of 3 kiddies, and I know when it is necessary to run to urgent care. Ok, really, I totally thought because she didn't have a fever, that she didn't have an infection and that truly, Bella was being dramatic. Not that I would know anything about drama!

So, she is now on antibiotics and ear drops for the PAIN. Yes, she has been in pain for three days now and I've blown it off like lint from a white napkin. Why do restaurants give us those by the way?

I'm trying not to feel mommyguilt. That really should be a word because we mommy's feel the guilt way too often. Whats up with that?

Off to kiss my little girl and tell her I love her!